leave me hypnotized, love

It has been ages. I've avoided posting lately because I've been wanting to post something contemplative but have been lazy to do the thinking and the writing involved with doing so.

I've been spending a lot of my extra time watching light-hearted romantic Asian dramedies and it's probably affected me in my thinking. I had a short discussion about how I believe that I can fall in love really easily. All it would take is a slight physical attraction and mutuality. My friend accused me of being unromantic in that I am trivializing chemistry and the uniqueness of an individual. I don't quite see it that way. My thinking is a bit simplistic but by no way is it unromantic.

In regards to the uniqueness of an individual and how the person should feel special not just because they like you but because they have qualities in them that fit your ideal, well, I don't know what my ideal is. Relationships are built on physical attractiveness and a mysterious thing called chemistry. If you just plain like each other, you can mold your ideals from the person you are with, not the other way around.

Basically, I feel that if there was someone who would fight for my love, I would do the same for them. That's all it takes. It's like the song, "Blue Dress" (by Depeche Mode), it's the simple things in life that pleases me. If you can understand that, you'll understand everything.

I remember watching Bridget Jones' Diary 2 (yeah, strange reference) and how she accused Mark Darcy of never willing to fight for her love and when I saw that, it made me aware of my situation at that moment. I was "in love" during that time, but every passing moment, it became more and more obvious to me that any adversities that came up, she would give up. I was willing to fight, but not by myself. Eventually when she completely gave up, I opted to not fight for it anymore because she wasn't willing to either. It's as simple as that.

Anyway, why has this all come up? Maybe it's because it has been a long enough period for me to miss being in love (not with her in particular, but just the general over all feeling) or it's all those jdoramas I've been watching. I was especially prompted by watching Omiai Kekkon. Everytime the female lead walked away from the male lead sad or crying, he would never go after her, the coward. He had a woman right in front of him that would fight for his love and he couldn't do the same in return? Instead, he'd just let her walk off everytime, alone.

Either way, what's the point of this post? No point really, but I think I'm ready again, let it come.