cue twilight zone music

A human-like robot, created by Hiroshi Ishiguru, debuted in Japan at the 2005 World Expo recently.

"When a robot looks too much like the real thing, it's creepy," Hiroshi told the Associated Press.

So why the heck did he make it? It is creepy and to mention other factors. We all know from countless movies (the newest being Stealth), if the robot some how manages to gain consciousness, it's first thought will be the destruction of humanity. Why? Who knows, that's just the way it happens.

i am human and i am selfish

She is going through some major stuff right now and apparently it has been going on for almost a year. I feel bad for her and want to do something, but for some reason, I am slightly upset that she hid it from me and didn't even tell me about it, even during the time that we shared something. At least I thought we shared something, but, apparently, it wasn't enough for her to talk to me about it. I am selfish. There is no reason for me to feel this way, as she is the one going through something upsetting. Sadly though, it would bother me even more if she had told somebody else about it during the time that we were together. I need to rise above being petty. She is struggling (but still strong) and I need to let my selfishness go.

I still care about her, but it is different now. I feel like I should be there for her not because I want her back, but because she was the closest person to me for a good 6 months. I do not really know what I should do. Maybe there is nothing for me to do because I know she would not want to burden me and, perhaps, she does not need me either. I wish her the best though.

wasting my time

I should have been doing something else but I decided to do this instead.

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alas, we hardly knew ye

This is my ode to things I miss. In this case, my favorite tv shows that were canceled. I'll keep it to ten. And now, once again, in no particular order:

1. "Sports Night" - Of all the shows that I can remember, this is probably the one that I truely wish had been given a few more seasons. I never even saw this during its original run, but caught countless re-runs on Comedy Central and absolutely fell in love with it. Too bad it was too late. The show had a lot of heart and wonderful moments of human relation. Every episode had something that tugged at you, made you laugh, or just made you feel good.

2. "Kindred: The Embrace" - This show fascinated me. I always had an interest in the gothic for some reason and this show sort of wrote its own myth on vampires. It was about a vampire society in modern day and the feuding of individual clans within it. Alas, it was cut short after 8 episodes.

3. "Babylon 5" - This is my geek choice. The Shadow War was, perhaps, the best bit of science fiction that was ever shown on TV. Too bad the networks left the show in limbo and the writers were forced to end the storyline because they wanted to complete it before cancellation. The show managed to last another season afterwards but the steam sort of went out of it. Still, it's my favorite Sci-Fi show of all time.

4. "The Pretender" - I tuned in each week to watch Jitendra.... er... I mean Jarod try to figure out who he was with his unique ability. A genius, who could insert himself into the role of anyone and know how to live their lives but yet barely know anything about his own life, made for a compelling story. There was a lot of spy intrigue along with an ever evolving mystery surrounding almost every character. It's what "Alias" is probably trying to be.

5. "Popular" - Maybe it was my teenage hormones combined with Leslie Bibb and Carly Pope, but I thoroughly enjoyed this show. It was dark and satirical. Every episode, in some way, poked fun of teens and their endless pursuit of popularity. It was fitting and amusing for someone going through high school at the time. It ended on a cliffhanger, but, sadly, I never even saw it.

6. "The Critic" - "What have you done with the cello?" One of my favorite lines from this half hour of goodness and I don't really know why. I just loved the show. It was hilarious to the level of classic Simpsons. Jay Sherman kept me entertained on a weekly basis.

7. "Futurama" - Before its cancellation it was far better than any of the Simpsons episodes running at the time. Brilliant comedy but terrible time slot. Episode 39, "Luck Of The Fryrish" still gets me right here [pounding the heart]. It's probably my favorite episode of any cartoon show I've ever seen, period.

8. "My So-Called Life" - I was never much of a fan of Claire Danes and I don't remember all that much about this show but I do know that I liked it. It was easy to relate to, I guess, as a teen growing up. It had quirky "real" characters and it, oddly, seems like it would make a successful show today. Oh well.

9. "Andy Richter Controls the Universe" - This was the first show, post-"Seinfeld", that came on that reminded me of it. Sure it focused around Andy Richter and his work environment, but essentially, it was all about nothing. Episodes didn't really flow into the next or anything. Each episode was just about the quirky interactions between his co-workers and their dealings with all aspects of life. It was just a half hour of hilarity and gut busting laughter.

10. "Dawson’s Creek" (episode 1) - I know, this one doesn't really fit, but I have to put this out. This show was canceled to me after the first episode. I absolutely loved the first episode. It seemed like a coming of age show that fit in well with what was going on during that time in my life. However, after the pilot episode, it seemed like network executives took it over and made it into a soap opera. Ick. I was so disgusted and so disappointed. There was so much potential. Sigh.

And some honorable mentions: "The Tick" (cartoon), "Relativity", "Phenom", "The Ben Stiller Show", "Nowhere Man", "Roswell", and "Zoe, Duncan, Jack, and Jane".

it's lonely at the top

Unless it's a list of top things. In this case, my top 5 favorite female actors (yes, favorite, not best). And in no particular order:

1. Natalie Portman: She's beautiful and a great actress. I first fell in love with her from watching Star Wars: Episode I, but then discovered I had also seen her in Mars Attacks. She has been well known for playing characters that seem mature for their age and it was her role in Beautiful Girls that sealed my fanboy commitment. Where the Heart Is, Anywhere But Here, Everyone Says I Love You, SW: Ep 2 and 3, Leon, Garden State, and Closer (and even her scene stealing cameo in Cold Mountain) all added to my obsession.

2. Kate Beckinsale: I first saw her in Brokedown Palace. It wasn't a very memorable role, but I always remembered that she looked so much better with long hair than with short (which is usually the opposite for me). However, she never showed up into my radar until Pearl Harbor, and then Serendipity. By that point she was making a blip, but when Underworld rolled around, I became a fanboy. Now, she's a not-to-be-missed actress for me. That accent and those eyes, I oggle.

3. Charlize Theron: She first came to attention in 2 Days in the Valley and ever since then, I've considered her one of the most gorgeous women working in the industry today. It was further emphasized in Devil's Advocate, Astronaut's Wife, The Cider House Rules (loved this movie), Reindeer Games (hated this movie), and The Italian Job. She's definitely got the looks, but I think she can act too. I still need to watch Monster though.

4. Elisha Cuthbert: I've only seen 1 movie that she was in (not counting her small role in Love Actually) and haven't even watched a single episode of "24". So why would I consider her one of my must sees? The Girl Next Door. I don't know why, but I love that movie. The movie had a lot of heart, and Elisha Cuthbert had a lot to do with that. Ever since then, I've been smitten with her.

5. Jessica Alba: I have to put her on here because I know I'd receive hell from Ky if I didn't. I've been admiring her since seeing her small role in Never Been Kissed and her slightly larger role in Idle Hands. She was a hottie then, but my how she has blossomed. "Dark Angel" was a nice weekly showcase of her (but the show, over all, was sort of lame) but that was only a stepping stone for her to become the current Hollywood "It" girl.

There are plenty more that I love to watch, but I have to make a cut off point some where right? Five sounded like a good number. Some honorable mentions: Rachel Weisz, Kiera Knightley (for her resemblance to Natalie), Alicia Witt (it was really tough to leave her out), Ashley Judd, Angelina Jolie (I'd have to give her the sexiest woman alive award), Thandie Newton, Claire Forlani, and Eliza Dushku. And some distant honorable mentions: Kristanna Loken, Kate Hudson, and Kate Winslet (strange choice huh? I never even seen Titanic but was enamored by her in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

(and crap, wow, that's a lot of honorable mentions)